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PART ONE : How Jesus Taught Me to Overcome My Hatred
1 “With My prayers you will not overcome your hatred”
2 See God through Jesus Christ
3 Count down to my repentance
4 What should I search for?
5 Thirst for the Holy Spirit
6 How can I receive the Holy Spirit?
7 With the help of Jesus I ask for forgiveness
PART TWO : How Jesus Taught Me to Forgive
1 Scared to open the Book of Genesis
2 What God said to Adam
3 What the Devil told Eve
4 God never punished Adam and Eve
5 How much the Devil controlled Me!
6 God’s Righteousness
PART THREE : How Jesus Taught Me to Love
1 My Great Fall
2 How I can receive God’s love and Jesus in my Spirit
3 Rubbing Gold
4 People who live for the Lord
5 A mind to Love
6 For what purpose did God create me?
7 If God never punishes
8 Forgive us the wrongs
9 Eternal life
10 Whoever does not believe will be condemned
11 The Last Supper
12 “So if you are about to offer your gift to God at the altar”
13 A Prayer of Thanks
14 How I can love God
15 Lamenting God
» The Words and Prayer that helped me to love God

HOW JESUS TAUGHT ME TO LOVE

Rubbing Gold
I asked one of my friends who is a priest, “If an unknown person ill-treats me or avoids me then I am not at all bothered. But on the other hand, if a person I know, (friend or relative) avoids me or illtreats me or rejects me, then it will be very painful for me. Why is it so and why the difference?”
Hearing this, the priest asked me an unrelated question. “How do you check the purity of gold?”
I replied, “First I have to visit a reputed gold shop, there the shopkeeper will rub the gold against the testing stone to check the purity of the metal.”
The Priest replied, “in the same way you can check whether you have received the Holy Spirit, God’s love and Jesus in your spirit.”
I ask how it was possible.
The priest replied, “If a known person (friend or relative) ill treats you, avoids you or rejects you, and still, you can love him, then this is the sign that you have received the Holy Spirit or God’s love or Jesus in your spirit. On the other hand if it leads to hatred that means you have not received the Holy Spirit or God’s love or Jesus in your Spirit.”
In this situation if I insist on getting their love, then this insistence will be there till my death. My adamant character will be a headache for my family and for my society. Instead of that if I start to pray for them and thank God for filling their Spirit with God’s love in Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit, it will help me to forgive them and to love them. At the same time it will bring peace to my family and to my society.
I was able to accept my faults and mistakes only when Jesus showed me that God never punished Eve and Adam in the Garden. At this stage I asked Jesus, “why is it so?” Then Jesus pointed out to me one of my favorite parables, (Luke 15:20) “So he got up and started back to his father. He was still a long way from home when his father saw him, his heart was filled with pity, and he ran, threw his arms round his Son, and kissed him. “Father,” the son said, I have sinned against God and against you, I am no longer fit to be called your son.”
Through this parable and the Lord’s life, Jesus made it clear that I can accept my mistakes and my faults only when I see God’s love for Adam and Eve in sending them out of the Garden. Jesus made it crystal clear that my mind will never allow me to accept my mistakes when I believe God punished Adam and Eve. That is the power of God’s love.
At this stage I was able to pray for the people who had given me shortcomings, even though I didn’t know them. This is the work of Jesus Christ; all merit goes to My Lord.

People who live for the Lord.
When I examined the people who live for the Lord, one thing was common in them, that they all tasted God’s love in Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit.
I respected and loved Mary, the mother of Jesus, from my childhood. The respect for her started growing in me when I saw her through Jesus Christ. Luke 1:34 Mary said to the angel, “I am a virgin. How, then, can this be?” The angel answered, “The Holy Spirit will come on you and God’s power will rest upon you.” Luke 1:38 “I am the Lord’s Servant”, said Mary, “may it happen to me as you have said.”
Here Mary never rejected God’s Message through the angel. She never complained to the angel about her difficulties or she never prayed for money and other material things like me. Jesus showed me that I can love the mother of Jesus, Mary only when I stop praying for money, power, material needs and start praying for the
Holy Spirit to reveal Jesus in my Spirit. That is why Jesus mother says in John 2:5, “Do whatever he tells you.” Her love for God influenced me to pray for the Holy Spirit.
Paul, at one time persecuted the followers of Jesus. But when he tasted the love of God in Jesus, he started to live for the Lord. Ephesians 3:14. For this reason I fall on my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth receives its true name. I ask God from the wealth of his glory to give you power through his Spirit to be strong in your inner selves and I pray that Christ will make his home in your hearts through faith. I pray that you may have your roots and foundation in love, so that you, together with all God’s people may have the power to understand how broad and long, how high and deep is Christ’s love. Yes, may you come to known his love-although it can never be fully known – and so be completely filled with the very nature of God.
Through this word I realized how deep Paul experienced God’s love in Jesus. Through this word Paul taught me that God‘s real blessing in the “life giving tree” is Jesus Christ.
Saint Augustine, once in search for love, lived like all other worldly people, but when he tasted Jesus in his Spirit he rejected the world and lived for the Lord. His famous quotation influenced me very much.
“Too late I came to love you, O, Beauty both so ancient and so new!..
Too late I came to love you and behold you were within me all the time.”
Saint Francis Assisi’s life influenced my life very much. One day, while Assisi was walking with his friend through their streets, a guilty person was coming towards them. Then Assisi told his friend, “If I had not tasted God’s love in Jesus and Jesus in my Spirit, I would have been in his position.” Assisi was telling his friend that the guilty person’s only problem was that, he never tasted God’s love in Jesus Christ and Jesus in his Spirit.
Jesus Christ’s life influenced people like John Vianni, Don Bosco, Alphonsamma (I am from her home town, Kottayam), Mother Theresa and the other holy people.
It’s only God’s love in Jesus and Jesus tasted in their Spirit that made these people live for Jesus. Through their lives these people are asking me to work for God’s love in Jesus Christ and work to reveal Jesus in my Spirit.